Stop talking about being relaxed and just relax.






I’m in China.

This is a hilarious photo of a drunk Japanese man at the Redmoon Lounge, Grand Hyatt, Beijing I sing at. Much amusement. In between his bouts of being passed out he was a very animated dancer! LOL.

Now, I’m lucky enough to be a pretty laid-back person. After growing up needing company all the time, my parents forced it out of me, and now I’m pretty good at being in the moment and enjoying my own company. Needing to conserve my voice, I also got a lot better at listening and not needing to talk all the time. Unfortunately, most people, including many of my close friends and family, are highly strung: worrying about everything and everyone. This constant alertness makes them unable to sit in a moment and breathe it (which is why I believe highly strung people should invest in a glass of wine quite frequently haha).

Living PURELY in the moment, can also be dangerous though. I believe it is a balance of the past, present and future. Take photos to remember the memories, but do not forget to actually make memories than just being concerned about the photos. I have a rule for this: NO LOOKING AT PHOTOS WHEN OUT. You’re never happy, and you spend all your time looking at memories instead of making them. Take photos as part of your fun, but looking at them is to enjoy the memory the next day.

Buddhist principles (which are really cool by the way) tell you to focus of letting go of attachment. Thus let go of how you expected the day to be, how you feel things should work, and adjust your perception to enjoy whatever you are faced with, with no judgement.

“It is better to travel well than to arrive” – Buddha


Stop waiting for Godot to arrive. He never will. Be happy now.


The importance of the OK

We’re all human. We don’t like criticism, or being told we are doing something wrong. Some have a tendency to over apologise, some get defensive, some get offended… However none of these reactions are productive when things need to get done.

We have a band leader. He is our director. He needs to guide us. If every time he tells us to change something or do it differently we give a year of excuses time is wasted and progress not made. It is important to learn that even though maybe you only did it that way because whatever, and you know what he’s saying, but you did it because something or other, but etc. that generally… It is most productive to just say: OK and get to it.

Drugs… Oh how they change

We grow up seeing and some experiencing drugs as this:


However, as we grow up and party too much/ work too hard/ wear slutty outfits in winter/ NEED to actually not be sick to earn money it becomes more like this



Being a musical theatre performer in my studies and how I make money. If I get sick… It’s a problem. Sooooo here are some tips I’ve learnt from my gp and other such ppl on how to avoid getting sick if you are prone…. Which are about to become slightly OCD addictions:

1. Never use the steam room at gym

As my very straight faced doc said “you might as well stick your head up a hobo’s anus” (there went my Saturday night extra-curricular activity too :0 )

2. Waterless hands cleanser!

It’s cheap and comes in nifty tiny adorable bottles! Also when normally washing your hands…. You gotta say your abcs….that’s how long…. I know…. *insert ain’t nobody got time for that meme here* well ain’t nobody got time or money for a throat infection every like 2 weeks.

3. Use a saline nose spray like 40 times a day and/or put ophthalmic ointment in your nose

K saline is cheap: buy a refillable bottle and an bulk pack of 0.9 or under saline mixture. These sprays will lightly disinfect the bacteria in your nose! The opthalmic ointment does the same, like bactraban.

4. nasal drainage …. No joke

When getting congested… It is the bomb diggity. It’s disgusting and called a douche (pleasant ey?) but once again with saline (0.9 or less) it is harmless and works like a dream.

5. Gargle saltwater

Once again, disinfects without harming! Do it! Just mix salt and water for this one

6. Stay at home and rest before its too late! Be careful of painkillers and throat sprays that make you feel you can go back to work before you’re ready!



Righty wisdom shared, now for wisdom drugged up me who did not do the above preventative measures in time wants to research about these drugs at approx 2am Central African time.


Because of the state the infection let my vocal cords and throat and sinusesget to… I’ve been put on 60g a day o.O and I had a vox op last year.

So we know this drug is dangerous. *discovery channel children’s show voice*but let’s learn more!

So it decreases pain, inflammation and swelling (are those not the same thing Wikipedia?) at the injury site by decreasing your immune system which Is apparently what it does when it naturally responds to stress in the body! Makes sense… That’s why ppl get sick when stressed or pmsing…. Wow see we’re learning things!

It’s side effects are commonly blurted out but my pharmacist… And this blog post alerted me to on I didn’t know of – insomnia. Also depression, anxiety, diabetes, insulin resistance, water retention etc


Huge pills! And I need 4 a day… Lets see what that’s doing ey?

Augmentin is used to treat many different infections caused by bacteria, such as sinusitis, pneumonia, ear infections, bronchitis, urinary tract infections, and infections of the skin.

Thanks… Lol. There are many important things you might need to know…. Which if you needed you certainly wouldn’t be on this blog 🙂

Less serious Augmentin side effects may include:

mild diarrhea, gas, stomach pain;
nausea or vomiting;
skin rash or itching;
white patches in your mouth or throat; or
vaginal yeast infection (itching or discharge).

Razor blades in my throat AND an itchy hoo ha… That would make me sad. Probiotics and yoghurt people. Mommys antibiotic lessons. Which apply to the hoo ha health in your later years.

It seems to kill tons of bacteria though… Which is good for the evil ones throwing a party on my throat and vox!


This is a pain killer sent by the gods. My doc prescribed it…. For reals

Indication: For temporary relief of fever and minor aches.

It has a thing called meprobamate… Which chills you out… Yay drugs! Some places in ‘Murcia have apparently outlawed it…. Errrr :S … No comment


Anyways I’m gonna watch more ‘skins’ now- a pretty rad British series. Psht I know right? My life’s so rock n roll right now.

On a side note honey makes throat feel nice and has anti bacterial properties. And marshmallows and lollies and yoghurts make feel nice (but they make you fat) but ice makes feel nice and doesn’t make you fat

Peace out! Stay healthy! And find me a rich traveling husband who will permanently immigrate with me to avoid winter.

The scale told me I gained 8kgs… Oops

Yep. I’ve been watching my weight all my life… And have never not wanted to lose at least 2 kilos.

But life happens, and sometimes a break-up, a car crash, or even a new friends group see you wake up in 3 months having eaten all the breadcrumbs and the entire candy house (or for some of us… Drank the entire pub).

So what do we do? Get back in gym. Eat healthy again. Not so easy when you’re busy, poor, and like to party. There are a fortune of diet sites, but here are some quick, easy, cheap foods that might help you.


Almost 1kg cut in half, costs me R8 at pick ‘n pay, that’s approx a dollar, maybe less. Olive oil, into oven, 45 minutes + whatever protein = meal! Tastes awesome and is easy as all hell. It also works great in a soup, ESP in combo with feta and sweet potato.


It is a good source of fibre, vitamin C, manganese, magnesium, and potassium. It is also an excellent source of vitamin A and vitamin E. 100g has 188 kJ (45 kcal), 11.69 g of Carbohydrates, 2 g of Dietary fibre, 0.1 g of fat, and 1g of protein.

Awesome yes?



It’s a pain to cook, and it stains. But I was recently introduced to the idea of raw beetroot -if you peel it and eat it raw, it’s a super useful snack.

Beetroot is a rich source of potent antioxidants and nutrients, including magnesium, sodium, potassium and vitamin C., and betaine. Additionally, several preliminary studies on both rats and humans have shown betaine may protect against liver disease, particularly the buildup of fatty deposits in the liver caused by alcohol abuse, protein deficiency, or diabetes, among other causes.

Beetroot juice has been shown to lower blood pressure and thus help prevent cardiovascular problems. It has antioxidant properties. Dietary nitrate, such as that found in the beetroot, is thought to be a source for the biological messenger nitric oxide, which is used by the endothelium to signal smooth muscle, triggering it to relax. This induces vasodilation and increased blood flow.


So super pretty good for you. And it tastes like a sweet and is eaten like an apple! Or grated. Or boiled…. But that’s a pain. Unless you’re feeling rich and you rock woolworths already cooked and sliced.

Nutritional value per 100 g (3.5 oz)
Energy 180 kJ (43 kcal)
Carbohydrates 9.96 g
– Sugars 7.96 g
– Dietary fiber 2.0 g
Fat .18 g
Protein 1.68

Ok so it’s got quite a bit of sugar so be wary of that.


Protein is expensive. Lentils are cheap.
If you don’t know what lentils are… They’re legumes…. Kinda like peas.


Lentils, raw (dry weight) Nutritional value per 100 g (3.5 oz)

Energy 1,477 kJ (353 kcal)
Carbohydrates 60 g
– Sugars 2 g
– Dietary fiber 31 g
Fat 1 g
Protein 26 g
Water 10.4 g

Put in a pot with water and some curry powder or any spice, leave to boil for like 45 min and voila.. Lentils or lentil soup. I count it as a carb and a protein. had this to say:

1. Lower Cholesterol – Lentils help to reduce blood cholesterol since it contains high levels of soluble fiber. Lowering your cholesterol levels reduces your risk of heart disease and stroke by keeping your arteries clean.

2. Heart Health – Several studies have shown that eating high fiber foods like lentils reduces your risk of heart disease. Lentils are also a great source of folate and magnesium, which are big contributors to heart health. Magnesium improves blood flow, oxygen and nutrients throughout the body.

3. Digestive Health – Insoluble dietary fiber found in lentils helps prevent constipation and other digestive disorders like irritable bowel syndrome and diverticulosis.

4. Stabilized Blood Sugar – Soluble fiber traps carbohydrates, slowing down digestion and stabilizing blood sugar levels. This can be especially helpful for those with diabetes, insulin resistance or hypoglycemia.

5. Good Protein – Of all legumes and nuts, lentils contain the third-highest levels of protein. 26 percent of lentil’s calories are attributed to protein.

6. Increases Energy – Lentils increase steady, slow-burning energy due its fiber and complex carbohydrates. Lentils are also a good source of iron, which transports oxygen throughout your body and is key to energy production and metabolism.

7. Weight Loss – Although lentils include all these beneficial nutrients like fiber, protein, minerals and vitamins, they are still low in calories and contain virtually no fat. One cup of cooked lentils only contains about 230 calories, but still leaves you feeling full and satisfied.

Also, if you’re busy… They’re quite cheap in a can already cooked as well.

well those are my diet tips for the mo, hope they help ya! Stay tuned, I’m gonna do some more investigation into alcohol and weight loss!

To hook up or not to hook up?


The random hook up?

I never did the ‘kiss random boys’ thing in high school- and veering in and out of moderately serious relationships and a now reformed sense of self-judgement, didn’t get into it much in my early varsity life. Now as a single girl, (we’ll run on the assumption that this dictates just a club make out… Nothing further, that’s another argument we’ll leave for after a few more seasons of sex and the city), hook ups are great for a bit of ego, a lil bit of intimacy, fun and helps relieve a lil sexual frustration. What can I say…. Everyone needs their bowl of slut cereal every now and then.

But can it ruin you and your friends’s night.

The aim of hooking up with someone (drunk or not) leaves you frequently scouting the room or club or whatever for a specimen you deem worthy; or constantly asking your sober friend for a judgement call on your drunk-goggles. It may be a fun game and end to your night, but can leave you or your friend feeling disappointed if said aims aren’t reached or leads to SERIOUSLY embarrassing judgements and a morning with a hangover and the added bonus of a lost dignity.

You often end up spending more time searching for or having a meaningless hook up with some drunk asss douche than time with the friends you actually enjoy spending time with and creating memories with.


HOWEVER… It can be fun. It can be a good way to meet people… And come out with an amusing story.

I guess it’s the balance of being on the lookout and not letting it take over your night with your mates and be the focus. And being prepared for the mockery and at least letting your friends in on whatever amusing story you come out with.

Your thoughts? (Auto-correct nearly made me write thongs, lol)

Where does all my money go?

It’s not just me.

It’s anyone who chooses not to count every penny. I certainly don’t want to become stingy but perhaps I should put a closer eye on what I spend money on… When your card gets rejected and you can’t even afford a 30c plastic bag for your groceries- it’s time.

Let’s start with the big things
Concert tickets, medication, petrol, doctors (it’s winter), waxes, haircuts, food, cosmetics, clothes and shoes


Tickets and entrance fees: Enter competitions? Become a groupie? BE THE BAND. Uh… Yeah that’ll help. Know the bouncer? Know someone who knows the bouncer? GOT IT! Know someone who’s slept with the bouncer.

Medication and doctors? Get a medical degree? Date a doctor? Don’t get sick… Yeah… I’ll try that. Or just die of your illness… Although funerals are quite pricey too.

Petrol… Walk? It’ll take away your gym expense….

Waxes and haircuts… DIY. My Greek friend does her own waxes and they have industrial hair! Bought Mandy’s wax…. And my hoo ha is still in one piece… So it works! Home highlight kit? I did that in high school. I’m not sure i wanna go back there.

Food… live off lentil soup! It worked for me in second year! It can work now!

Cosmetics? Finish the damn bottle first! I have 3 unsharpened eyeliners, 4 unfinished moisturizers… Finish it! And genuinely: buy a large cheap version of most things and only use the expensive ones on special occasions. Also… Don’t go near any cosmetics shop, you will come out with 30 things you don’t ACTUALLY need.

Clothes and shoes. There is no easy solution. Just be a millionaire. Or own forever new or something.

the little things

PETROL STATIONS (late night gum, late night diet coke, water bottle, inspired magazine, car air freshener… General shit you don’t need), drinks, eating out, random chocolates for friends

Errr…. Keep a bottle of water in your car… Try cut down on the gum and diet coke (or buy in advance) … Rob the petrol station? That bullet proof glass ain’t fooling anyone.

Drinks? Drink water.
Give up alcohol.

Be a slut and get men to buy them.

Eating out?
Be a prude and make men buy you dinner first

Random chocolates for friends? (Don’t ask, I do it lots) become a social recluse or tell your friends they’re fat.

I think that’s a mature way of dealing with this problem.
Perhaps I should start a budgeting firm.
Lemme know if you need financial help.
I got this.

Nothing kills a production like too much exposition


“We were walking toward the fountain, the epicenter of activity, when an older couple stopped and openly observed us. Robert enjoyed being noticed, and he affectionately squeezed my hand.

“oh, take their picture,” said the woman to her bemused husband, “I think they’re artists.”

“Oh, go on,” he shrugged. “They’re just kids.”
― Patti Smith, Just Kids

I’m 21.

I’ve had an awesome life. Good school. Great parents. I’m an overachiever. Science and Maths geek. For the past 4 years I’ve been studying musical theatre. My 4th year is part time thesis work while I work jobs to support myself. It’s a new phase:

the awkward transition between student and adult

No matter what you study or do, that phase where you’re independent but still under your parents roof, are more frequently the designated driver, when if you get sick… You have to take your own sorry ass to the doc and pay for it…. Yeah that phase, happens to pretty much everyone.


Yep I’m in my 20s. About to finish studying, and about to commit to jobs that I might not enjoy or that hold me back so I can pay for things like car services and gynecologists. I’m starting to realize that almost all the boys at *insert student party venue* (hatfield square) are too young for you but anyone in the working realm seems too damn old and boring.

We’re all trying to answer questions.

who am I?

Errr…. Ok… I donno, can change slightly depending on the boyfriend who last broke my heart… Or my most recent hourly epiphany…

Ok so
I like shopping. Definitely. Clothes, shoes, accessories.
I like performing.
I like gym and running.
I like drinking…. A bit too much
I like smart people… And men with abs… The two don’t often come in one
I like renting box sets of sexandthecity
I like writing music, singing etc and generally creating things

I don’t like glee
I don’t like stupid people who think they’re smart
I don’t like rude hipsters (probably because I’ve always secretly wanted to be one)
I really don’t like frogs… They scare me
And I’m baffled by gambling

I drink copious amounts of tea. And coffee in phases. And have an unhealthy addiction to peanut butter.

I fall in love, and get heart broken easily
I am a retard and frequently an emotional roller coaster.
I’m not clingy…. But I’m needy.

Cool…. That will do.

what do I want from life

Shit…. That’s where I get stuck.

Errrmmm have we lived enough of life to know? And what if you spend half your life working towards something only to find out its not what you want!?

what next

Well, after stressing about how I couldn’t arrange a holiday because I might miss work or auditions, and if I did book one I’d have to ask for leave etc… I realized revelation … I have the rest of my life for this! Responsibilities will only increase. THUS… I will travel after my cabaret contract ends (and I finish my *has mini panic attack* thesis). I will get up and go while I still can. Before life ties me down!

I wanna explore. Create. Be free. Be retarded and not grow up and regret that I never lived it up in my youth. Cheesy but true. After all…. We are always just kids in one way or another.